Miss you

What do I need to do for you to understand that I miss you all the time, that I just want to talk with you, to be with you. Sometimes I wait until you say something, but it's so hard and I can't wait till you text me, it can take days or weeks, who knows. But it's good when finally happens, it fills me with energy, I can't stop, I look like a stupid child when they receive a new toy, they just want to play with it and I just want to talk with you and
Yes, censure me to bore you so much, but I really can't stop, when I talk to you it's like the world had calmed down, but when I don't, it's looks like I can't control my self, what it used to be a kind of happiness now is nothing more than a dead smile.
Can you show me some light in this night? I begin to lose my self and I can't see where this path will take me, I'm afraid of doing a false step and fall again. Help me out, give me an hand if you don't mind, just say something, that's more than enough to make me smile once again.

"I just want to see you"

And I'm just asking to myself all over again if that's for me. My convinced side want to believe that it is, that you miss me and you want to see me again, but once again my negative side wins. Neither I can believe in that bullshit getting off my mouth, why so pessimist? I put you so much questions but I've got no answers yet, I really like you and I need to know if there is a minimum possibility of my convinced side win this time. 

Dreams

It all begins with a "Good Bye", I close my eyes and start my little adventure, I begin to ask for what side I'm going to turn. 

When I turn to left I see you running in my direction, I'm arms open to give you a big hug but when you touch me you vanish in the air. I must understand that you're not here anymore, you're just part of my imagination, I've lost you and I can't find you again. Now I'm looking for any  clue, trying to reach you wherever you are,  trying to follow your footsteps but they're so confuse, disguised by the sands of the desert I'm in. I am trying to concentrate, have a moment of silence, all my focus are into you, I want to know if I can still feel your heart, feel your presence, but I'm not listening anything, nothing but a pure dead silence. It's nothing more than a nightmare that I don't want to come true.

 But there's something strange about this, when I turn to right everything is different, like a fairy tail, where everything I want takes place. 

You and me, walking to the infinite world of our imagination, step by step we get closer, till I can grab your hands and tell everything I feel about you. It's the perfect moment, the moment when we kissed. Suddenly everything around us had stopped, the world where we were was crashing down and it opened the way for a new one, one that will takes us wherever you want to go, wherever you dream to be. 

Till the moment you turned unto me, grabbed my hands and looking at my eyes you said "I just want to be with you". I didn't answer, my actions said everything I had to say. It's not hard to tell what it went next, but I let you figure out.

That cycle repeats all over again till I open my eyes once again and it's the beginning of a new day. Now I want you to tell me, what side makes me closer to my reality, the one that I'm with you, or the one I'm not. 

"Perfect sense"

Have you ever though in a world without any senses? A silent dark world, there's nothing around, you can't feel anything, it's like a living dead walking on earth, being dead or alive doesn't make any difference. 

You begin to lose all of your senses, one by one they all start to fade, what would you do before that? What would you wanna say? Your last moments, last views, how do you want them to be? 

I'm going to tell what would I do. 

First, before I lose my vision, I spent the rest of my time looking at you, looking how beautiful you are, so that when my eyes started to lack I could remember your face for the rest of my life, never forgot a single trace, remember your eyes, imagine  you looking at me and showing your beautiful smile. That's how I want to imagine you in my head, always smiling with a shinny eyes, always beautiful as you are.

After seeing nothing, seeing black all around me, I wanted to be in a silent place, in a field, a high place like a mountain, where I couldn't hear nothing but your voice and the sound of nature around me, I would open my arms, close my eyes and feel the fresh air passing by, the cold breeze shivering trough my body. Then all I wanted was to hear your voice, hear you whispering at my hear "I love you". Feel the smell of your perfume, passing trough my lungs awakening every cell in the way.  

While I could feel something, I would put my hands upon your chest to feel your heartbeats increasing while I came closer and closer to you until you could feel my lips touching yours.  

And with the tongue you know what I would do... 

And that's the perfect final I dream. How about yours? 

Baseado no filme "Perfect Sense".

Always say what goes trough your mind no matter what

I don't know what to do, what to say, I can't even know what is going trough my mind right now. Wherever I go I'm always thinking about one thing, everything else just passed by. When everyone asks me what I feel about you, I answer you're just a special friend, but how special are you to me? I was thinking about that in the last few days and I came to only one conclusion, you're more special than I ever thought you were. I was dying to see you in the last week, in the last day, today... The days passed by, holidays are almost over, and I wasn't capable of seeing you another time. 

There's so much I wanna say but so lack of courage. I'm always thinking what would you do if I told ya everything that goes in  my head, everything I feel about you. I miss you right now, sometimes I wish you miss me to, that you feel the same way I do. 

Every time I look at the phone and see your message there's something strange happening with my mouth, it's inevitable, a stupid smile appears, it's like, me going all crazy just because you text me, cause every time you do that means you were thinking about me, and yes, that feels great! But sometimes I don't say nothing cause I'm just waiting for you to say something, I don't want to bore you so much.  I think to my self, and if, if you were the one that is waiting for me? Well that's what I'de liked to hear, but I don't know if that's the truth that lays beside me.

My head isn't in this world right now, is always thinking in you, where would you be, when would I see you again. So much questions and just a few answers, and non of them are the answer I'm looking for to solve this problem. Yes this is like a big issue, I can't focus on anything else beyond you, is like, I go to sleep so the time can pass quicker just to talk to you one more time on a new day. It's a new day, it's a new hope to see you again, you're incredible  beautiful, funny and the thing I love most about you is that you're so friendly, always with a shinny smile on your face, dammit it's like impossible to don't like you. 

 After all,  next time someone asks me what I feel for you, my answer will be so simple, "I'm totally in love for her". 

Deves ser um caso especial, visto que passaram mais de 4 dias desde da última vez em que te vi e ainda gosto de ti. 

I think I like you...

Hey oh coração do Micael, acalma-te lá aí um pouco! Sim é óbvio que ela é muito bonita, querida e até pode ser a pessoa mais simpática que conheceste nos últimos tempos, mas e depois? Não é que seja a melhor pessoa do mundo... Pronto se calhar neste momento até é. Mas e depois? É só um sorrisinho bonito e uma carinha laroca que te vai deixar nesse estado? 

Ai não é só isso? Então é mais o quê? Hum coisas que só tu percebes e que eu não consigo entender. Cá para mim soa-me apenas a grandes tretas de desculpas. Ah sentes-te bem quando estás perto dela, faz-te sorrir e mal podes esperar pelo próximo dia em que a verás. 

Pronto está bem, desejo-te boa sorte com isso. Já devia estar habituado, é sempre assim. Apenas quero-te lembrar que sempre que seguiste o teu coração houve sarilhos, por isso desta vez estou-te a dar um aviso prévio do que poderá acontecer, mais uma vez. 

Sim porque sempre que as coisas correm mal sou eu a tua consciência que tem  de arrecadar com os problemas do teu coração.